I not dead-yet!

I have been very sick for the past several days. I am not dead but at times I would have liked to have croaked! I have an infection in my colon! YUCK! Without being too graffic let's just say the toilet and I have been very, very good friends. We've visited more than 30 times in 24 hours. I hope this goes away very soon and I can get back to regular life. I'm getting board of lying in bed and my family and my house need me! Adam is trying but you know how men are! I hope to get some pictures of all the other stuff we've been up to after I feel better. Maybe in a week or so, the doctor said. See ya!

Get outta this funk would you?!

I have to admit that I have been having better days than that one from the last time I posted but come on! I have been in this "funk" for weeks and I can't shake it. I need sun, but Sarah's leaving town so I can't go to St. George, Logan's too cold and they just got more snow, and the bank says I don't have enough money to get myself to Salt Lake! I'll just retire to my scrapbook room. Ahhh! AFTER my grades are all caught up, this is the end of the term, AFTER my house is clean, oh yeah my house is never totally clean, and AFTER I dig out and make a path to my desk in my scrapbook room. I will have to work on that elephant one nibble at a time. Wish me luck!

Anyone out there?

I'm home with Maddie, who is sick today, so that's given me a little time to think. Has anyone ever had a day when they feel so small and insignificant in this big, old giant thing we call life? What is it all about? Why? It is so crazy to me that sometimes I feel like this because of course I know the answers to these questions but today I'm pondering... I know what I believe is true but why then do I feel so small? I don't really LOVE everything in my life right now. I'm not sure if I want to teach school forever more, I really want to have another baby- or do I? I feel like no one would even notice if I fell off the earth. Someone else could teach my class, someone else could do my laundry, someone else could raise my kids. I feel really confused today. Please don't read too much into this post-I'll be okay. I just need to know that other people have these kinds of days too. Anyone?